Homesick

I am homesick. I am not sure for exactly what though. At this point in my life I have at least two homes: Washington and Idaho. I am homesick for my friends in Rexburg. I am homesick for true fall weather. I miss the rain. I know that Nevada will turn into a home of its own, but until then I am homesick.

I woke up this morning in a funk. I had dreamed about my family. I don't remember details, I just know they were in my dream. That was a tough way to start the day. Luckily my sophomores kept me busy enough that I didn't have much time to think. I finish teaching my sophomores and I am mentally and physically exhausted. They are a rowdy bunch, and keep me on my toes all the time. So today I am grateful for my rowdy sophomores who just want to be themselves. They are so determined to be individuals, but at the same time they want to be part of the group. Watching them makes me glad that I am past the high school years.

Tomorrow I have my seniors. I have enjoyed block schedule because it makes the week go by so much faster. I love it. It makes it hard though when I don't see my kids everyday. Today I planned vocabulary stations for my kids. I decided to try something different. My 5th period went a little crazy, and my 7th period actually functioned really well with it. I hate how a lesson will be awesome with on class but tank with another. I needed a win with my 7th period today, and I had a small victory. They were on task today. The vocab stations went too long but it was beneficial for them. My classroom looked like a war zone after the last bell rang. Paper every where. I guess it shows that we were busy learning. Small victories are what I am celebrating lately.

I am tired most of the time, which means working out is almost nonexistent. I ride my bike to school and back every day, but I rarely have the time or energy to go running. That is on me. I know that working out equals more energy, but that sacrifice of sleep and energy until i get the benefits would probably push me into an insane asylum.

I take little mental breaks to watch my favorite shows like "New Girl" and "Sons of Anarchy". "Scandal" starts this week which has me pumped. This weekend is homecoming weekend, as well as conference weekend. I have signed up to chaperone the homecoming dance this Saturday. I also need to be there for the HC football game to help my freshman and cheer for my seniors.

Mike has been the best during all of this. He supports me and takes care of Delaney. There are days when I don't want to take much more but he helps pull me through. We are extremely blessed. We have a job, an apartment, food on the table, and each other. I am grateful. I don't want to sound like I am whining. I just needed to let out some steam. I never knew how much stress I would have as a teacher, especially during my first year. I am so blessed to have the support of my family and Heavenly Father. I just need to take it one day at a time.